I don't hate you or anyone else. That doesn't mean I want to talk to you.
That's easy enough. Stop posting trash directed at me.
You may feel hatred. I don't. However, I know enough about you to realize that befriending you is a trap. I tried treating you nicely before and got unprovoked attacks on and off line in return. Tom Fowler had the same experience just recently when he tried to help you. There is no reason to believe you've suddenly changed.
You need mental counseling -- not cyber-friends. This newsgroup, which is primarily a hang-out for misfits, is no substitute for the medical help you need. That's not a taunt. I mean it. Get yourself into therapy. Or don't. You can stay exactly as you are if you want. Either way, I'm not going to make the mistake of treating you like a friend a second time.
Try calling Olson or Jiminex next time you want a shoulder to cry on. Olson will pretend to be your friend, but by now you probably know he's a total fraud. Jiminex will explain how your problems are all my fault and then rant about how happy he is that I have cancer. Then he'll get back in his rowboat and dream about perfect pairs or some other such drivel. That's about all the help you're going to find in ASA. Everyone here thinks you're an idiot.